I close my eyes and meditate on the words spoken in these songs. God is present every time, I just thank him so much that I am free to worship him, and I will not give up, or let him go. I couldn't let him down and give the enemy that satisfaction.
To sum it all up, what I'm trying to say here is; 'Alleluia for your Lord God Almighty, The enemy has been Defeated and that's why I shout to you with a voice of triumph. Now all I can do is imagine what it will be like the day I see your face. Not sure what my reaction would be, but one thing I'm sure of is my soul will be in a state of rejoice.
Amen!
Yusuf A. Tillery
Michael W. Smith - Alleluia
Hillsong - Shout Unto God
Mercy Me - I Can Only Imagine
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
How Do You Know When Your Happy?
That's a question I couldn't answer, but in all honesty who can if you were like me pretending and tell yourself you were till you believed it; but eventually reality will kick in.
For me that reality was when I returned to the Lord.
Some don't understand it, and I don't expect the world to understand it, because I don't live for the world.
You see I will held accountable for my life as we all do.
But it's important to understand that living a way that I feel is the way does not mean I judge you for the way you live. It just means this is what works for 'ME'.
But we spend so much time debating with each other instead of understanding each other and loving each other.
I was thought to love everyone regardless of what they believe, and as long as there is respect for one another then you've done nothing wrong.
I live in a way that keeps me at peace, I've tried other ways but none have worked for me. Before I came back to God I didn't care about life, but since I've let him back into my heart I feel like I'm breathing new air, and not the nasty stuff we've been breathing that's causing Global Warming lol.
But seriously I feel brand new, born again, and ready to take on whatever challenges life brings my way.
I found real love and peace so wonderful there are now words to describe;
and that's when I knew I was happy.
Yusuf A. Tillery
For me that reality was when I returned to the Lord.
Some don't understand it, and I don't expect the world to understand it, because I don't live for the world.
You see I will held accountable for my life as we all do.
But it's important to understand that living a way that I feel is the way does not mean I judge you for the way you live. It just means this is what works for 'ME'.
But we spend so much time debating with each other instead of understanding each other and loving each other.
I was thought to love everyone regardless of what they believe, and as long as there is respect for one another then you've done nothing wrong.
I live in a way that keeps me at peace, I've tried other ways but none have worked for me. Before I came back to God I didn't care about life, but since I've let him back into my heart I feel like I'm breathing new air, and not the nasty stuff we've been breathing that's causing Global Warming lol.
But seriously I feel brand new, born again, and ready to take on whatever challenges life brings my way.
I found real love and peace so wonderful there are now words to describe;
and that's when I knew I was happy.
Yusuf A. Tillery
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Am I Worthy?
I fall and can’t keep from falling; so I ask father am I worthy?
I can’t understand why my God, why am I always in this same place?
I can cry and sing out ‘the enemy has been defeated’.
But what do I say when I feel the enemy has defeated me?
Jesus where are you? I need you and I need you now. Yes I know my steps have been ordered. But my God is it that you know I can bear more then this?
God I’m at my low right now and just wondering if you’re out there, and if you can help me. Your word says when I am weak, that’s when your strong, well Lord I need your strength and need it now.
I had a dream last night and I rebuked the devil out of my life and woke up in tears. It was almost as if you were right there with me, and it felt so super natural. Was that really you my Lord?
God I tired and sometimes feel like giving up, this spiritual warfare has drained everything out of me, or at least I feel as such.
Sometimes afraid to sleep just because I’m afraid of my dreams, I’m saying God are you there?
Your word says this battle is not mine; but it’s yours. My God make me into a storm survivor.
Make my praise worth something.
Make me a mighty man of God
Give me the strength of your son Jesus
Let your grace and mercy pure on me like rain
Create in my a clean heart and renew a right spirit in me and cast me not away o Lord
Cover me in the blood of Jesus, and protect me
Give me love
Give me peace
Give me joy
Give prosperity
Fight the evil one out of my life for me when I can’t take no more
God I know you can and will for I know you shall always be Lord of all. I declare your are the living God and in your word there is living for you are the living word.
But my Lord what I am trying to ask you is,
Am I worthy?
Yusuf A. Tillery
I can’t understand why my God, why am I always in this same place?
I can cry and sing out ‘the enemy has been defeated’.
But what do I say when I feel the enemy has defeated me?
Jesus where are you? I need you and I need you now. Yes I know my steps have been ordered. But my God is it that you know I can bear more then this?
God I’m at my low right now and just wondering if you’re out there, and if you can help me. Your word says when I am weak, that’s when your strong, well Lord I need your strength and need it now.
I had a dream last night and I rebuked the devil out of my life and woke up in tears. It was almost as if you were right there with me, and it felt so super natural. Was that really you my Lord?
God I tired and sometimes feel like giving up, this spiritual warfare has drained everything out of me, or at least I feel as such.
Sometimes afraid to sleep just because I’m afraid of my dreams, I’m saying God are you there?
Your word says this battle is not mine; but it’s yours. My God make me into a storm survivor.
Make my praise worth something.
Make me a mighty man of God
Give me the strength of your son Jesus
Let your grace and mercy pure on me like rain
Create in my a clean heart and renew a right spirit in me and cast me not away o Lord
Cover me in the blood of Jesus, and protect me
Give me love
Give me peace
Give me joy
Give prosperity
Fight the evil one out of my life for me when I can’t take no more
God I know you can and will for I know you shall always be Lord of all. I declare your are the living God and in your word there is living for you are the living word.
But my Lord what I am trying to ask you is,
Am I worthy?
Yusuf A. Tillery
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Blessed Assurance - (From my "What Hymns Mean To Me" collection of literature)
Jesus is mine; Blessed assurance.
Why use the word ‘assurance’ to then say Jesus is mine? When look at the word assurance I think of its definitions;
1. a positive declaration intended to give confidence
2. promise or pledge; guaranty; surety
3. full confidence; freedom from doubt; certainty
4. freedom from timidity; self-confidence; belief in one's abilities
5. presumptuous boldness; impudence
This all makes perfect sense to me till we get to the 5th definition. Presumptuous means to be over confident even arrogant, and impudence means the quality of being offensively bold, offensively bold behavior, or the trait of being rude and impertinent; inclined to take liberties. The quality of being impudent; assurance, accompanied with a disregard of the presence or opinions of others; shamelessness; forwardness; want of modesty.
So why such a word? So to be a believer does this mean I am to be arrogant about my faith? Knowing I hold the worlds truth; should I be shameless in my praise? Why should your opinion matter to me, when I serve the most high God? Or should I just be forward and say ‘THE WAYS OF SIN IS ETERNAL DEATH’?
This is my story
Blessed assurance, O what a foretaste of divine glory from God. The dynamics of this is just mind bottling to know that when sincerely practiced and when you say blessed assurance; you’re speaking confidence into your life, freedom, that guaranty from God. A worry free guaranty and I know Verizon promises the same when you join their service. The only difference is they take your money and make you sign a contract for those services. Gods worry free guaranty is free and because he loves you so much he will let you go at anytime you choose because he wants to give you that freedom to try others if you must. God never wants us to feel locked in or trapped. He wants people who can serve him on the basis of just who he is and not what he can do for you. The real question is; Why would you want to try anything else?
This is my song
Submission, delight, all perfect even rapture, MY GOD, in my sight. Angels, mercy, and his love, Lord Jesus what I would give to be washed in your blood. My soul is at rest as I sit here and wait, looking above, nothing but his goodness, HALLELUJAH!!!!!! The feeling of being lost in his love. I read these words and my soul weeps, I get emotional, and can’t help at times to cry. I hear these words and I speak them into my life, and there is this strength that comes over me. This ability to take on anything God puts before me, just top prove more and more how devoted I am to him. Not just by my service and my works but just in the simple way I live my life.
Praising my savior
If I am going to sing this hymn and call it one of my favorites then I need to be bold, and offensive in his name and for his name sake. I’m not going to no longer hold back this truth that I hold and turn around and say I am assured that Jesus is mine. Yes I will boldly disregard your beliefs, as you should mine if your faith teaches otherwise. If you know you hold ultimate truth in your faith then nothing or no one should be able to take you from it. Now I will not be rude, but no thank you I don’t need to hear your version of the truth because mine truth is all in the word of God. Shame is no longer in my vocabulary, not even for my past. In God my past has been forgiven, so I will praise in shamelessly and boldly with no regrets. Satan is what’s behind me, and the cross is before so no need to look back. My eyes are on the prize and God Blessed Assurance is my guide – All the day long. Amen!!!!
“Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! O what a foretaste of glory divine! Heir of salvation, purchase of God,Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
Perfect submission, perfect delight,Visions of rapture now burst on my sight; Angels descending bring from above Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
Perfect submission, all is at rest I in my Savior am happy and blest, Watching and waiting, looking above, Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.
This is my story, this is my song, Praising my Savior, all the day long; This is my story, this is my song, Praising my Savior, all the day long.”
Yusuf A. Tillery
Why use the word ‘assurance’ to then say Jesus is mine? When look at the word assurance I think of its definitions;
1. a positive declaration intended to give confidence
2. promise or pledge; guaranty; surety
3. full confidence; freedom from doubt; certainty
4. freedom from timidity; self-confidence; belief in one's abilities
5. presumptuous boldness; impudence
This all makes perfect sense to me till we get to the 5th definition. Presumptuous means to be over confident even arrogant, and impudence means the quality of being offensively bold, offensively bold behavior, or the trait of being rude and impertinent; inclined to take liberties. The quality of being impudent; assurance, accompanied with a disregard of the presence or opinions of others; shamelessness; forwardness; want of modesty.
So why such a word? So to be a believer does this mean I am to be arrogant about my faith? Knowing I hold the worlds truth; should I be shameless in my praise? Why should your opinion matter to me, when I serve the most high God? Or should I just be forward and say ‘THE WAYS OF SIN IS ETERNAL DEATH’?
This is my story
Blessed assurance, O what a foretaste of divine glory from God. The dynamics of this is just mind bottling to know that when sincerely practiced and when you say blessed assurance; you’re speaking confidence into your life, freedom, that guaranty from God. A worry free guaranty and I know Verizon promises the same when you join their service. The only difference is they take your money and make you sign a contract for those services. Gods worry free guaranty is free and because he loves you so much he will let you go at anytime you choose because he wants to give you that freedom to try others if you must. God never wants us to feel locked in or trapped. He wants people who can serve him on the basis of just who he is and not what he can do for you. The real question is; Why would you want to try anything else?
This is my song
Submission, delight, all perfect even rapture, MY GOD, in my sight. Angels, mercy, and his love, Lord Jesus what I would give to be washed in your blood. My soul is at rest as I sit here and wait, looking above, nothing but his goodness, HALLELUJAH!!!!!! The feeling of being lost in his love. I read these words and my soul weeps, I get emotional, and can’t help at times to cry. I hear these words and I speak them into my life, and there is this strength that comes over me. This ability to take on anything God puts before me, just top prove more and more how devoted I am to him. Not just by my service and my works but just in the simple way I live my life.
Praising my savior
If I am going to sing this hymn and call it one of my favorites then I need to be bold, and offensive in his name and for his name sake. I’m not going to no longer hold back this truth that I hold and turn around and say I am assured that Jesus is mine. Yes I will boldly disregard your beliefs, as you should mine if your faith teaches otherwise. If you know you hold ultimate truth in your faith then nothing or no one should be able to take you from it. Now I will not be rude, but no thank you I don’t need to hear your version of the truth because mine truth is all in the word of God. Shame is no longer in my vocabulary, not even for my past. In God my past has been forgiven, so I will praise in shamelessly and boldly with no regrets. Satan is what’s behind me, and the cross is before so no need to look back. My eyes are on the prize and God Blessed Assurance is my guide – All the day long. Amen!!!!
“Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! O what a foretaste of glory divine! Heir of salvation, purchase of God,Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
Perfect submission, perfect delight,Visions of rapture now burst on my sight; Angels descending bring from above Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
Perfect submission, all is at rest I in my Savior am happy and blest, Watching and waiting, looking above, Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.
This is my story, this is my song, Praising my Savior, all the day long; This is my story, this is my song, Praising my Savior, all the day long.”
Yusuf A. Tillery
Thursday, October 9, 2008
My Prayer; My Cry To The Lord
(This one I wrote about 5months ago)
I finally know the meaning of being Blessed and Highly Favored. I love the Lord and he's heard my cry. God just continue to bless me and show how real you are and through me others may see your grace. Only you know where my mind was because you and you alone went and got it and saved it from myself. I was head down towards a bottomless pit but you lifted me out of the pit of the hell I was headed to, and gave me foundation.
Your name I cannot stop praising, the things of the world I gave up and let go for you are all worth it. At the end of the day it was you and you alone that created me and showed me all your love and mercy. When man has given up on me and told me I wouldn’t make it and love was something I could never feel; You stepped in and gave me a second chance, for you are the God of a second chance. When I felt I couldn’t make it you stepped in and said yes you can, for you are a God of yes. I never knew what love was until I accepted your love, for you are the God of love.
My heart cries, my heart sings, and it’s all the joy of the Lord. For the joy of the Lord has given me the strength to love my enemies, and transgressors. I finally get it God; How can I love you who I cannot see but hate any man who I can see stand before me. Regardless of what I’ve done your word says you still love me but not my sin. So if my desire is to be more like your son Jesus Christ then I must love every being before me and beyond for they are your children just as I am.
Lord I can’t stop and I won’t stop praising you till they day I die and be with you in heaven. And according to your word as long as I live in your will, I will not die but have eternal life and live more abundantly. A life free of sin, hurt, pain, and evil, Lord my God, my true father I am done asking questions, and I have no doubt of whom you are. I will no longer allow the nescience of myself and others get in the way of the blessing you have in store for me. I’m ready for you to use me to serve your kingdom and do as you ask. So God here and now I say to you take me as I am and create in me a new clean heart, and o Lord renew my spirit within and take not your Holy spirit from me. Restore to me your joy and I shall worship and proclaim you as my God.
Keep me and protect me, for the devil is busy trying to destroy what you’ve created for good and use for evil. O Lord my God keep me, protect me. There an old song that says “Tell me who can stand be before us when we call on God’s great name; For in the name of Jesus we have the Victory.”
Lord I declare ‘Victory’ because your word says I’ve won this battle long before I was conceived, and all I have to do is call on your name and proclaim your as my God and ‘Victory would be mine today and forever.
I am not worthy of your grace and mercy but you alone are worthy of my praise.
Amen!
Yusuf A. Tillery
I finally know the meaning of being Blessed and Highly Favored. I love the Lord and he's heard my cry. God just continue to bless me and show how real you are and through me others may see your grace. Only you know where my mind was because you and you alone went and got it and saved it from myself. I was head down towards a bottomless pit but you lifted me out of the pit of the hell I was headed to, and gave me foundation.
Your name I cannot stop praising, the things of the world I gave up and let go for you are all worth it. At the end of the day it was you and you alone that created me and showed me all your love and mercy. When man has given up on me and told me I wouldn’t make it and love was something I could never feel; You stepped in and gave me a second chance, for you are the God of a second chance. When I felt I couldn’t make it you stepped in and said yes you can, for you are a God of yes. I never knew what love was until I accepted your love, for you are the God of love.
My heart cries, my heart sings, and it’s all the joy of the Lord. For the joy of the Lord has given me the strength to love my enemies, and transgressors. I finally get it God; How can I love you who I cannot see but hate any man who I can see stand before me. Regardless of what I’ve done your word says you still love me but not my sin. So if my desire is to be more like your son Jesus Christ then I must love every being before me and beyond for they are your children just as I am.
Lord I can’t stop and I won’t stop praising you till they day I die and be with you in heaven. And according to your word as long as I live in your will, I will not die but have eternal life and live more abundantly. A life free of sin, hurt, pain, and evil, Lord my God, my true father I am done asking questions, and I have no doubt of whom you are. I will no longer allow the nescience of myself and others get in the way of the blessing you have in store for me. I’m ready for you to use me to serve your kingdom and do as you ask. So God here and now I say to you take me as I am and create in me a new clean heart, and o Lord renew my spirit within and take not your Holy spirit from me. Restore to me your joy and I shall worship and proclaim you as my God.
Keep me and protect me, for the devil is busy trying to destroy what you’ve created for good and use for evil. O Lord my God keep me, protect me. There an old song that says “Tell me who can stand be before us when we call on God’s great name; For in the name of Jesus we have the Victory.”
Lord I declare ‘Victory’ because your word says I’ve won this battle long before I was conceived, and all I have to do is call on your name and proclaim your as my God and ‘Victory would be mine today and forever.
I am not worthy of your grace and mercy but you alone are worthy of my praise.
Amen!
Yusuf A. Tillery
I Surrender All - (From my "What Hymns Mean To Me" collection of literature)
To serve the almighty God I surrender all. I give up all my worldly possessions to serve and follow Him. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
I had no clue what I was doing with my life until the Lord my God saved me, and showed me what true love is. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
Sin had me bound, and I was a prisoner but my God freed me from that hell I was living in and gave me a taste of heaven. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
The devil knows every plan you have for my life and want to do everything possible to keep me from your will for my life. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
The world can offer me nothing but in you I have everything. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
Nothing to rely on but the word of God, His word is the same yesterday, today and forever more, My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
“All to Him I freely give. I will ever love and trust him, In his presence daily live.
I surrender all.
Humbly at his feet I bow. Worldly pleasures all forsaken. Take me Jesus, take me now.
I surrender all.
Make me, Saviour wholly Thine; Let me feel the holly spirit, Truly know that thou art
mine.
I surrender all.
Lord, I give myself to thee. Fill me with Thy love and power; Let Thy blessing fall on me.
I surrender all.
Now I feel the sacred flame. Oh, the joy of full salvation! Glory, glory to His name!
All to Thee, my blessed Saviour, I surrender all.” Amen!
Yusuf A. Tillery!
I had no clue what I was doing with my life until the Lord my God saved me, and showed me what true love is. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
Sin had me bound, and I was a prisoner but my God freed me from that hell I was living in and gave me a taste of heaven. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
The devil knows every plan you have for my life and want to do everything possible to keep me from your will for my life. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
The world can offer me nothing but in you I have everything. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
Nothing to rely on but the word of God, His word is the same yesterday, today and forever more, My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
“All to Him I freely give. I will ever love and trust him, In his presence daily live.
I surrender all.
Humbly at his feet I bow. Worldly pleasures all forsaken. Take me Jesus, take me now.
I surrender all.
Make me, Saviour wholly Thine; Let me feel the holly spirit, Truly know that thou art
mine.
I surrender all.
Lord, I give myself to thee. Fill me with Thy love and power; Let Thy blessing fall on me.
I surrender all.
Now I feel the sacred flame. Oh, the joy of full salvation! Glory, glory to His name!
All to Thee, my blessed Saviour, I surrender all.” Amen!
Yusuf A. Tillery!
Faith, (A Mustard Seed; Is it Enough?)
Faith the size of a mustard seed is no longer enough for me. My desire is to seek more from the almighty and enjoy all he has for me. I just know deep in my heart that what God has for me, a mustard seed could not hold, and neither could the world.
God is so big how can I continue to keep him this box that I've kept him in for so long. Not letting him lead my life as he sees just, but taking the wheel myself and driving of the road several times over.
Faith; what does this word mean? for me it's just to wide to say 'I have faith' without saying who I have faith in.
But the problem is, sometimes I'm not sure if God is always with me. Sometimes I feel I'm all alone, as if God just gave up on me. Stop telling me the light is at the end of of the tunnel when you can't even see it yourself. So when I feel that way do I still have faith?
I'm so tired of using the excuse "I am only human" as if we were created poorly.
For sure we are not perfect, but do we use that as an excuse to screw up and live in sin and then say "I am not perfect, I'm only human". So when is it appropriate to play the human card and when is it time to own up?
The word of God says that a mustard seed is enough, so then it must be. But am I wrong for seeking more? I just think of his grace and mercy and I can't just contain it to a mustard seed. No matter how many times I turned my back on him, he still waits with open arms. No I can not see him but I feel him, and what I feel is far better then what I can actually see. My desire is to live a life as pure as possible, and be more like Christ who walked this earth and battled sin, then went on to take my sins and carry my burdens; O Lord I can only imagine.
My God am I wrong to seek more then a mustard seed? I am clear on the fact that it is enough but if my one desire is to be like your son Jesus then I need to seek more.
Yusuf A. Tillery!
God is so big how can I continue to keep him this box that I've kept him in for so long. Not letting him lead my life as he sees just, but taking the wheel myself and driving of the road several times over.
Faith; what does this word mean? for me it's just to wide to say 'I have faith' without saying who I have faith in.
But the problem is, sometimes I'm not sure if God is always with me. Sometimes I feel I'm all alone, as if God just gave up on me. Stop telling me the light is at the end of of the tunnel when you can't even see it yourself. So when I feel that way do I still have faith?
I'm so tired of using the excuse "I am only human" as if we were created poorly.
For sure we are not perfect, but do we use that as an excuse to screw up and live in sin and then say "I am not perfect, I'm only human". So when is it appropriate to play the human card and when is it time to own up?
The word of God says that a mustard seed is enough, so then it must be. But am I wrong for seeking more? I just think of his grace and mercy and I can't just contain it to a mustard seed. No matter how many times I turned my back on him, he still waits with open arms. No I can not see him but I feel him, and what I feel is far better then what I can actually see. My desire is to live a life as pure as possible, and be more like Christ who walked this earth and battled sin, then went on to take my sins and carry my burdens; O Lord I can only imagine.
My God am I wrong to seek more then a mustard seed? I am clear on the fact that it is enough but if my one desire is to be like your son Jesus then I need to seek more.
Yusuf A. Tillery!
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