Friday, July 24, 2009

A Thought I Had on Newport cigarette's




So I am chilling with a friend this evening, and although this crossed my mind a few time during my days as a cigarette smoker. I've always felt stupid to even share it but I decided I would anyway.



So me and my friend are hanging out and there was an empty box of Newport's on a table and the box is upside down. This reminded me of that stupid thought I had so I grab the box and kept rotating it and it may just be me and maybe someone has already thought of this before.

So I proceed to tell my friend a story about how I began to smoke Marlboro. My days growing up in The Bronx and living in an urban city such as New York when I picked up the bad habit of cigarettes Newport was what was introduced to me. Any ad magazine targeted to reach me would have these cool advertisement of really good looking people such as myself ;-) having a great time.

So a little later on I begin to travel and live in different countries and when I left America for the first time I was shocked not to find Newport's. I just thought like most items you can buy anywhere; To me Newport was like Mikey Dee's and it was global. Unfortunately for me at the time it wasn't so when in Rome do as the Romans do. I was actually in London, England and most people smoked Marlboro Lights or Parliament. So that's my story of how I went from Newport's to Marlboro Lights.

As I began to travel more and around my own country I notice unless a city has high census numbers of African Americans and Hispanics Americans Newport's are very hard to find. If you have Black or Hispanic friend who travel a lot and smoke Newport, ask them how crucial it is to purchase a certain of Newport's from the duty free shop before they leave.

OK I am getting to my point now :-)
As I am looking at this cigarette box the first thing the pops in my brain is the logo. If you look at the 2 pictures on the top right I have the box right side up, and up side down. When up side down it looks like the logo for Nike and this box of cigarettes now almost has a sporty look to it. It already contains this sporty like image in a way; but up side down I immediately think of trainers.

Now you may ask yourself "well what does one have to do with the other?" Well I could be wrong and I am not saying that all Blacks and Hispanics wear Nike trainers because I may own just one pair myself. BUT there is no denying that Nike is the number 1 brand of footwear in urban fashion among Blacks and Hispanics between the age of 13-35. You can even go younger then 13 but lets just say 13 because most cigarette smokers would tell you that they started smoking before 18, and I started at 17.

So I explain that to my friend and she says "I never really thought about that but what if your right that's freaking crazy." So we laugh and begin to really think about it and I said being that it's the first time I have ever said that thought out loud maybe I should share it on my blog.

This is not a praise to cigarettes at all and I am not saying that ALL Black and Hispanic American smoke cigarettes, and all the ones that do do not only smoke Newport's. BUT Newport biggest consumer base I believe are in cities where these racial group have settled and call home.

In the picture it almost looks like a box of sneakers, every time I look at it I keep thinking how I need new trainers to work out in and for some reason I am thinking Nike as I look at this photo.

Also I am not saying that this is some kind of planned partnership between Nike and Newport and they are secretly the same company. But the logo when turned around looks the same to me, and maybe it's just a coincidence.

It's also a known fact that President Obama is trying to stop smoking and his brand of choice is Marlboro. But I wonder if he has ever picked up a Newport whilst living in Chicago all those years? LOL!
Thanks for reading.

Yusuf A. Tillery


Sunday, October 19, 2008

A Short Collection Of What Brings Me To Worship

I close my eyes and meditate on the words spoken in these songs. God is present every time, I just thank him so much that I am free to worship him, and I will not give up, or let him go. I couldn't let him down and give the enemy that satisfaction.
To sum it all up, what I'm trying to say here is; 'Alleluia for your Lord God Almighty, The enemy has been Defeated and that's why I shout to you with a voice of triumph. Now all I can do is imagine what it will be like the day I see your face. Not sure what my reaction would be, but one thing I'm sure of is my soul will be in a state of rejoice.
Amen!

Yusuf A. Tillery

Michael W. Smith - Alleluia



Hillsong - Shout Unto God



Mercy Me - I Can Only Imagine

Thursday, October 16, 2008

How Do You Know When Your Happy?

That's a question I couldn't answer, but in all honesty who can if you were like me pretending and tell yourself you were till you believed it; but eventually reality will kick in.

For me that reality was when I returned to the Lord.
Some don't understand it, and I don't expect the world to understand it, because I don't live for the world.
You see I will held accountable for my life as we all do.
But it's important to understand that living a way that I feel is the way does not mean I judge you for the way you live. It just means this is what works for 'ME'.
But we spend so much time debating with each other instead of understanding each other and loving each other.

I was thought to love everyone regardless of what they believe, and as long as there is respect for one another then you've done nothing wrong.
I live in a way that keeps me at peace, I've tried other ways but none have worked for me. Before I came back to God I didn't care about life, but since I've let him back into my heart I feel like I'm breathing new air, and not the nasty stuff we've been breathing that's causing Global Warming lol.
But seriously I feel brand new, born again, and ready to take on whatever challenges life brings my way.
I found real love and peace so wonderful there are now words to describe;
and that's when I knew I was happy.



Yusuf A. Tillery

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Am I Worthy?

I fall and can’t keep from falling; so I ask father am I worthy?
I can’t understand why my God, why am I always in this same place?
I can cry and sing out ‘the enemy has been defeated’.
But what do I say when I feel the enemy has defeated me?

Jesus where are you? I need you and I need you now. Yes I know my steps have been ordered. But my God is it that you know I can bear more then this?
God I’m at my low right now and just wondering if you’re out there, and if you can help me. Your word says when I am weak, that’s when your strong, well Lord I need your strength and need it now.

I had a dream last night and I rebuked the devil out of my life and woke up in tears. It was almost as if you were right there with me, and it felt so super natural. Was that really you my Lord?
God I tired and sometimes feel like giving up, this spiritual warfare has drained everything out of me, or at least I feel as such.
Sometimes afraid to sleep just because I’m afraid of my dreams, I’m saying God are you there?

Your word says this battle is not mine; but it’s yours. My God make me into a storm survivor.
Make my praise worth something.
Make me a mighty man of God
Give me the strength of your son Jesus
Let your grace and mercy pure on me like rain
Create in my a clean heart and renew a right spirit in me and cast me not away o Lord
Cover me in the blood of Jesus, and protect me
Give me love
Give me peace
Give me joy
Give prosperity
Fight the evil one out of my life for me when I can’t take no more

God I know you can and will for I know you shall always be Lord of all. I declare your are the living God and in your word there is living for you are the living word.
But my Lord what I am trying to ask you is,
Am I worthy?



Yusuf A. Tillery

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Blessed Assurance - (From my "What Hymns Mean To Me" collection of literature)

Jesus is mine; Blessed assurance.
Why use the word ‘assurance’ to then say Jesus is mine? When look at the word assurance I think of its definitions;
1. a positive declaration intended to give confidence
2. promise or pledge; guaranty; surety
3. full confidence; freedom from doubt; certainty
4. freedom from timidity; self-confidence; belief in one's abilities
5. presumptuous boldness; impudence

This all makes perfect sense to me till we get to the 5th definition. Presumptuous means to be over confident even arrogant, and impudence means the quality of being offensively bold, offensively bold behavior, or the trait of being rude and impertinent; inclined to take liberties. The quality of being impudent; assurance, accompanied with a disregard of the presence or opinions of others; shamelessness; forwardness; want of modesty.
So why such a word? So to be a believer does this mean I am to be arrogant about my faith? Knowing I hold the worlds truth; should I be shameless in my praise? Why should your opinion matter to me, when I serve the most high God? Or should I just be forward and say ‘THE WAYS OF SIN IS ETERNAL DEATH’?


This is my story
Blessed assurance, O what a foretaste of divine glory from God. The dynamics of this is just mind bottling to know that when sincerely practiced and when you say blessed assurance; you’re speaking confidence into your life, freedom, that guaranty from God. A worry free guaranty and I know Verizon promises the same when you join their service. The only difference is they take your money and make you sign a contract for those services. Gods worry free guaranty is free and because he loves you so much he will let you go at anytime you choose because he wants to give you that freedom to try others if you must. God never wants us to feel locked in or trapped. He wants people who can serve him on the basis of just who he is and not what he can do for you. The real question is; Why would you want to try anything else?


This is my song
Submission, delight, all perfect even rapture, MY GOD, in my sight. Angels, mercy, and his love, Lord Jesus what I would give to be washed in your blood. My soul is at rest as I sit here and wait, looking above, nothing but his goodness, HALLELUJAH!!!!!! The feeling of being lost in his love. I read these words and my soul weeps, I get emotional, and can’t help at times to cry. I hear these words and I speak them into my life, and there is this strength that comes over me. This ability to take on anything God puts before me, just top prove more and more how devoted I am to him. Not just by my service and my works but just in the simple way I live my life.


Praising my savior
If I am going to sing this hymn and call it one of my favorites then I need to be bold, and offensive in his name and for his name sake. I’m not going to no longer hold back this truth that I hold and turn around and say I am assured that Jesus is mine. Yes I will boldly disregard your beliefs, as you should mine if your faith teaches otherwise. If you know you hold ultimate truth in your faith then nothing or no one should be able to take you from it. Now I will not be rude, but no thank you I don’t need to hear your version of the truth because mine truth is all in the word of God. Shame is no longer in my vocabulary, not even for my past. In God my past has been forgiven, so I will praise in shamelessly and boldly with no regrets. Satan is what’s behind me, and the cross is before so no need to look back. My eyes are on the prize and God Blessed Assurance is my guide – All the day long. Amen!!!!


“Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! O what a foretaste of glory divine! Heir of salvation, purchase of God,Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.
Perfect submission, perfect delight,Visions of rapture now burst on my sight; Angels descending bring from above Echoes of mercy, whispers of love.
Perfect submission, all is at rest I in my Savior am happy and blest, Watching and waiting, looking above, Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.
This is my story, this is my song, Praising my Savior, all the day long; This is my story, this is my song, Praising my Savior, all the day long.”


Yusuf A. Tillery

Thursday, October 9, 2008

My Prayer; My Cry To The Lord

(This one I wrote about 5months ago)

I finally know the meaning of being Blessed and Highly Favored. I love the Lord and he's heard my cry. God just continue to bless me and show how real you are and through me others may see your grace. Only you know where my mind was because you and you alone went and got it and saved it from myself. I was head down towards a bottomless pit but you lifted me out of the pit of the hell I was headed to, and gave me foundation.
Your name I cannot stop praising, the things of the world I gave up and let go for you are all worth it. At the end of the day it was you and you alone that created me and showed me all your love and mercy. When man has given up on me and told me I wouldn’t make it and love was something I could never feel; You stepped in and gave me a second chance, for you are the God of a second chance. When I felt I couldn’t make it you stepped in and said yes you can, for you are a God of yes. I never knew what love was until I accepted your love, for you are the God of love.
My heart cries, my heart sings, and it’s all the joy of the Lord. For the joy of the Lord has given me the strength to love my enemies, and transgressors. I finally get it God; How can I love you who I cannot see but hate any man who I can see stand before me. Regardless of what I’ve done your word says you still love me but not my sin. So if my desire is to be more like your son Jesus Christ then I must love every being before me and beyond for they are your children just as I am.
Lord I can’t stop and I won’t stop praising you till they day I die and be with you in heaven. And according to your word as long as I live in your will, I will not die but have eternal life and live more abundantly. A life free of sin, hurt, pain, and evil, Lord my God, my true father I am done asking questions, and I have no doubt of whom you are. I will no longer allow the nescience of myself and others get in the way of the blessing you have in store for me. I’m ready for you to use me to serve your kingdom and do as you ask. So God here and now I say to you take me as I am and create in me a new clean heart, and o Lord renew my spirit within and take not your Holy spirit from me. Restore to me your joy and I shall worship and proclaim you as my God.
Keep me and protect me, for the devil is busy trying to destroy what you’ve created for good and use for evil. O Lord my God keep me, protect me. There an old song that says “Tell me who can stand be before us when we call on God’s great name; For in the name of Jesus we have the Victory.”
Lord I declare ‘Victory’ because your word says I’ve won this battle long before I was conceived, and all I have to do is call on your name and proclaim your as my God and ‘Victory would be mine today and forever.
I am not worthy of your grace and mercy but you alone are worthy of my praise.
Amen!


Yusuf A. Tillery

I Surrender All - (From my "What Hymns Mean To Me" collection of literature)

To serve the almighty God I surrender all. I give up all my worldly possessions to serve and follow Him. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
I had no clue what I was doing with my life until the Lord my God saved me, and showed me what true love is. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
Sin had me bound, and I was a prisoner but my God freed me from that hell I was living in and gave me a taste of heaven. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
The devil knows every plan you have for my life and want to do everything possible to keep me from your will for my life. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
The world can offer me nothing but in you I have everything. My blessed Saviour I surrender all.
Nothing to rely on but the word of God, His word is the same yesterday, today and forever more, My blessed Saviour I surrender all.

“All to Him I freely give. I will ever love and trust him, In his presence daily live.
I surrender all.
Humbly at his feet I bow. Worldly pleasures all forsaken. Take me Jesus, take me now.
I surrender all.
Make me, Saviour wholly Thine; Let me feel the holly spirit, Truly know that thou art
mine.
I surrender all.
Lord, I give myself to thee. Fill me with Thy love and power; Let Thy blessing fall on me.
I surrender all.
Now I feel the sacred flame. Oh, the joy of full salvation! Glory, glory to His name!

All to Thee, my blessed Saviour, I surrender all.” Amen!


Yusuf A. Tillery!